Name: Elaine .b'dae: 15 Aug . hobbies: singing, playin PIANO and BADMINTON . gender: Gal .
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im like slacking now.. chatting.. i finished my homework that's due tommorrow tho.. still got bio reflections, chinese review and piano theory.. my exam is next sat!!! i pray that i'll get distintion.. i dont wanna break my record.. hees..
it's funny how one moment i can be super stressed out and next laughing n slacking wif my frens.. mayb im not really stressed out after all?? just dat im upset wif my results?? isit normal to be not doing very well in e beginning?? like an adjustment period?? sigh..
i must go n eat my sago thing!! arhh.. wad is it called?? mommy tried to cook dat but failed.. bleh.. was waiting for it for about 1 hour on e third day of cny.. but we waited in vain man.. im determined to go penang kitchen on fri to satisfy my tastebuds!! XP
-ThE EnD-
i just composed a new song!! it's not ready but here it is the lyrics.. (for sound please call me XP)
I'm counting on Your grace
You see me everywhere i go
You see the truth and my show
You know how i feel when I'm running low
Fill me, oh Lord..
I'm counting on Your grace to see me through this crazy world
knot Your arms around me in this phase where i am being twirled(2X)
-ThE EnD-
havent been blogging much.. school's stressing me out.. i think im gonna suffer from depressions, was having suicidal thoughts.. lol.. why cant God just take me out of this materialistic, superficial, competitive and stressful world?? i dont really like being in my class.. all of my classmates are chao competitive larh.. they r somewhat fun.. but i dunno.. just cant click i guess.. mayb i would have been much happier if i opted for arts stream instead.. den i'll do combine bio, chem. elect hist, a and e math and take art.. draw draw draw.. no winner, no loser.. XP if im only taking 7 subjects, i'll probably take music olevels.. i dont think im a sciency person, i cant imagine myself as a doctor or a nurse, an enginneer or scientist.. psychologist and sociologist mayb.. but i enjoy music more!! hiaz.. oh wells.. i'll take one step at a time bah..
counting on Your grace to see me through this crazy world..
-ThE EnD-
it's been quite awhile since i last blogged.. Finally!! i've moved into my new house! bmt peeps came over this aftnn for lunch, but cam n her fren didnt wanna eat.. bleh. it's specially cooked for u all ya noe.. oh wells.. JAM!! e kids were torturing my drum set.. im glad it survived.. they threw a rubber lizard, which looked extremely real, at me and i screamed out my lungs.. and e kids found so thrilling.. -.-
"u say it best.. when u say nothing at all..." man, it;s stuck in my head..
-ThE EnD-
i really must thank God for His mercies and ask for His forgiveness.. my comp's working now.. thank God! i was trying to do my research for tommorrow's compo test when e &^%$#@ internet connection had somthing wrong!! questioned my bro what he did to e internet!! argh!! then he say pluck direct.. argh.. cannot find e input. after plugging in the cable, still cannot connect!!!!! so fed up!! bang bang e box, then bang bang e comp. den proof! BLANK!! (ididntnoedatiwassostrong. hees) i slammed e laptop and WTH! den i broke down.. wailling.. for like more than 5 mins.. i thought that it was gonna crash again like e last time where i suddenly couldnt turn on e comp..
as i sat there wailing.. figured out that i was chaoji super upset becoz i've lost all my photos and song and convers and etc.. at that point i was asking God why me ?? why now?? but the thought that hit me back was that all these will come to past.. all will fade away and that i should stop clinging on to these material things and hold on to the eternal God. it's time i start to prioritize again.. putting God first in everything and all these blessings God has given to me aft Him. God can bless one with alot of things but when He wants you to sacrifice it but u dont want to.. it's time to check on your priorities..
Heaven and Earth will fade
but His words will still remain..
-ThE EnD-
Officially :: God's child