Part of His plan

EXAMS!!

2008-11-01T20:12:00.004+08:00

heyhey! im back! im like the busiest person during school term and holidays but i've actually got time to blog during my exams!!!

home alone.. i dont think i can survive overseas alone! i dont really like eating myself alone. haha, but i can. it's luxury to be eating with someone--i just realised dat. home alone, studying. or at least suppose to..haiz.. It's okie, Elaine! You're gonna finish soon! only 4 more papers to go!!! jia you everyone! add oil, add oil!! haha..

sometimes i hated to slap myself back into reality, but i know i have to..

EXAMS!!

2008-11-01T20:12:00.001+08:00

2007-12-01T13:52:00.000+08:00

youth camp was fabulous!! the place was good, the company was fun and the time of learning and reflection was great!!

i was told that we got to be prepared to rough it out.. but the place was soooooo comfortable. eh, who's e big fat liar arh?? got air-con and water heater leh!! what more can i ask for? there was this super duper, extremely cool wardrobe in the other building.. it's called the narnia wardrobe. it takes you to another world -the world of long house. haha.. but e block is still under construction.. I WANT NARNIA!

this camp was suppose to be 3D2N camp but i for the 6 of us.. it was a 3D1N camp. it was my first time staying up for e entire night!! awake for more than 24 hrs! we spent e night covering almost e whole song book twice and gave e mosquitoes another treat aft we were were done singing. coffee works wonders.. i was still quite hyper in e morning.. just dat my brain wasnt working..

i've reminded that God does extraordinary things in the most ordinary days. He's ALWAYS, ALWAYS with me, even when i feel far.

God sees the depths of my heart and loves me the same.. God, You are amazing..

2007-10-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

Today's CF was super fun!! it was filled laughter lameness and cakes!!! so obviously we had birthday celebration..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO E 5 OF U!!!

kymberly
charisse
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sindhya's birthday song was funny..

happy birthday to u (2X)
happy birthday to sindhyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....aaaaaaaaaa.aaaaaa.
aaahahhhhhhhhh.....
yyyayaaaaaaaaaaaummmmmmm

SENG!

haha..
im gonna miss CF!!! i pray that each and every of u girls in Cf will continue to walk with the Lord even during the hols!! take care!!

2007-10-23T18:05:00.000+08:00

headstart started!! sian.. but at least there's some motivation to get out of bed.. for the last 2 schooling day we've been getting our results.. some were demoralising and others were good! at least to me.. Praise God for my results!! gtg.. lots of homework to do..

2007-10-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

the whole of today was filled with PIANO!! in e morning went for CP prac, then 11 plus when for worship prac the 1 plus went for jamming!! i dont believe it, but i got locked out of nlbc! i wanted to go to the toilet so i thought there was no harm leaving my handphone at the piano. but when i returned, i realised the GREAT mistake i had made.. the main door has a "auto lock" door.. i thought that tis kinda thingthing will only in drama series.. i went to check if there was still anyone left in hbc church office.. n boy, e door was lock.. ididnt have my hp wif me n i cant even rmbr my bro's number, so there was no point in looking for a public phone.. i was banging on and shouting at the door but no response. i could hear all the fun there were having inside!! =P i was praying so hard that one of them will find something amiss that im taking so long and i also prayed that they'll need to pee so that they can come to my rescue!! haha.. i sat at the door helplessly.. then i heard footsteps coming towards the door n i jumped up!!

God really answer prayers.. i pray that they will find something amiss n that at least one of e guys will need to pee.. n both happened!! hurray!!

2007-10-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

today's sentosa outing was great!! the weather was good, all four of us had fun and the luge was fun!! i thank God for this day cos we hardly have time to meet altogether in school..

i wanted to go there to tan myself but i came back looking the same.. the other 3 didnt want to get tanned applied sunblock lotion over n over again but all were red and dark.. =( no fair.. oh wells.. mayb go again at the end of e year..

2007-09-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

i dont know why, but i just keep thinking that PTL isnt over. it's next week. but we all know that the next week won't come till next year.. after PTL (2 weeks ago), my friend commented that it was boring. =| she thought that the whole event was in a mess. like you stand up, worship, then out of a sudden, you sit down and it's a concert. i didnt really think about the flow of the event till she told me. so i was thinking, maybe we should have a musical next year. something like "Time in a bottle". it was a combined event of hosanna and new life, about 6 years ago. time flies.. that was a adult thing with a few kids like me. wont it be cool to have one which is organize by youths n youths only? but of course, the most important thing is that Christ's name is proclaimed! it'll be another chance for our friends and relatives to hear the gospel once more! and the band will be OneUP. then from there, we'll get the singers in, the venue comfirmed n e leaflets out!! but i'm still praying about it.. O LEVELS next year!!! i wanna do this musical thingthing but it's Os.. but then again, i know God will carry me through Os even if i'm busy serving Him. i'm just too uncertain to confirm anything right now.. KEEP PRAYING!!

Stir up in our hearts a passion for Your name.
And..
Give me oil in my lamp, keep me burning
Give me oil in my lamp, i pray.
Give me oil in my lamp, keep me burning,
Keep me burning till the break of day.

2007-08-19T22:32:00.000+08:00

i dont feel like studying now.. but it's only 4 weeks to final year!!! chill larh. dont be anxious. just pray that i'll be hardworking in the new week.

rach's got her first boyyfriend!! so exciting! but it's none of my business. haha.. i wanna attend her wedding!!! is it too soon?? i've got no clue how long they've been together. oh wells.

dot seems to be doing well in aussie! her lessons sounds so fun! maybe i'll go there to study too! ;P

2007-08-10T17:31:00.001+08:00

woah! we had tom yam steamboat for dinner ytd!! hot man!~ the stage in marina bay looks so much smaller than national stadium. mayb becoz it's on the sea therefore it looks smaller?? i guess e highlight of the new location is only the showcase of the navy. other than that, nothing very interesting.. oh wait, the fireworks at the bridge was very beautiful.. it looked like a curtain of fire. haha.. the lamest thing was the wierd guy on blades.. solame.. cant stand him.. the tom yam almost came out..

aft national day parade was live the dream.. bleh.. it was boring.. no funny stuff.. MJ!!!! we played all the way to 1 am.. hee.. at first was bro, daddy/mommy and auntie shan.. by 12.00 my mother cannot take it liao.. so she went home to sleep while daddy waited for us.. now left aunty shan n yf, bro and me. then 1230 daddy beng liao.. haha.. so he went home.. i won at least 5 rounds leh!!! break record liao.. haha.. but we dont gamble so it's pure enjoyment and fun!! aunty yf was saying dat it's time for my parents to get used to this..

2007-07-31T20:41:00.000+08:00

argh!!!! why must we suffer the consequences of some irresponsible, indecent, childish girls!!!!! argh!!! just because THEY posted indecent photos in school uniform, WE, now, have to remove all photos of us in school uniform. then~ some "INTELLIGENT" feller, went and question about photos on friendster. man.. the school claims to be protecting us by doing so. i think they're depriving us from show-casing our memorible moments in school life. argh..

2007-07-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

high school musical on channel 5 has just ended.. i miss being in a musical.. there's a great sense of satisfaction when a good show is put up after practising your heart out.. singing the same songs day in day out, in the toilet, class, bus and bed! tryin to memorize e lyrics, hitting e right pitch, and singing in front of the mirror to ensure that my facial expressions tally with the meaning of e song. then, we'll meet every week during choir with miss lim to perfect it. as the day draws nearer, we'll have intensive practice in a cold empty hall. then, e day finally arrives.. you wait behind the curtains with anxiety, excitement and sweaty palms!! the sound of applause gets louder and louder. curtains open. the spotlight is on you! and you are in full view of EVERY SINGLE audience!! i remembered that i could only see the silhouette of people. then, the music was played, took a deep breath and there i went. singing my song with the choir as my backup singers. it was memorable.. the lyrics went somthing like that:

Hello (hello), Hello (hello) Alexanda Graham Bell.
Did you think, your invention would turn out so well?
Now the whole world is connected and wherever you are,
You're never too far to call..

haha.. i was P5 then. the musical was about famous inventors. i wonder when i'll sing in high school musical. XP

2007-07-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

it's been chao long since i blogged the last time!! much has happened since.. i miss badminton.. WHEN?? i WANNA PLAY!!!! ohoh.. in melaka, toilets were those squating ones and we used pail and bucket to bathe. so one night, my intelligent mother accidently knocked her shampoo bottle over. it slided and disappeared into the hole with a blink of an eye. she rushed out to take a hanger into the toilet. kapo pple like me, went and take a look. the bottle was floating in the water about 50 cm deep. ( i dont wanna know what kind of water it was). mommy tried to fish it out but instead she fished out something else.. err, i dont hav to spell it out right.. haha.. to be continued.. tired liao.. Good night!!

2007-05-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

iHope seminar was rather good.. especially sy rogers.. he's so amusing!!! e way he talks, e way he holds a piece of paper and e way he walks is So GAY!!! haha.. well he WAS a homo but God has brought him out and now he's serving God full time, shaaring is life testimony.. one thing i've learnt was that, people not only need to know that they have sinned but also know that there is hope for them to repent and change.. i think that's e point that most Christians miss.. We're gonna be e generation that change the world.. wow!! i may wanna be a singer like corrine may.. her songs seems like any other pop song.. but if u were to look deeper into the lyrics, it somewhat talks about Christianity.. an evangelical tool.. isnt it cool?? or should i do psycology?? i dunoo!!!! mayb e should start writng songs and at e same time study really hard to get into psycology and if i dont, i'll be a singer and i would already have my songs written!! haha..

2007-04-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

woah.. it's been a long time since i last blogged!! exams are starting and i dont feel like studying anymore.. but it's the last lap.. so must jia you!!! i just came back frm badminton with church friends in pathlight.. my eyes are like shutting but my brain is still quite awake..

things are getting better.. ajustment period over and i feel that i can manage my time better now. i wanna go shopping!! im waiting for zara sale.. shenshen just bought a new apple green blouse.. it's simple and nice.. =) ihope i'll score well in mid yrs!!

2007-04-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

he who is given more, more will be expected of him.. sometimes i just wonder why am i given so much. i just feel so caught inbetween aft stepping up.. is there really a change/adaptation period, or am i just being too sensitive?? the way u ppl talk to me now somehow feels different, yet the difference is not distinct enough for me to bring it up or rather i dont hab courage to bring it up to ya.. i dunno.. im rather confused now.. pple affirm me that am not alone.. but why do i still feel so, so like.. alone.. i dunno what can b said what cannot.. dere's this age gap or gen gap.. sometimes i just dont feel like talking yet i need to.. im afraid if i bottleit all up i'll end up having emotional breakdown, which in another words is going crazy.. i think i watched too much hk series liao.. haha.. gtg..

2007-03-28T21:01:00.000+08:00

today was so humid!! i dozed off almost every half an hour.. joyce and jac r really getting great! i think they make great guitar partners.. jac somehow always play the lower strings and joyce e higher ones. So jac is like a support bass and joyce is like soprano.. hahaha!! nice blend. keep it up!!

2007-03-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

Thank God for e fine weather today!!! we were already panting even before e race started.. dont understand why must we meet at benjamin shear;s bridge.. it';s so ulu-ated.. i think e other churches oso had probs finding e location..

our starting clue was to walk all e way back to esplanade to find a "guy" wearing a "green" shirt with a verse, For me to live is Christ, on e back. BUT! the "guy" turned out to be a lady.. and the "green" shirt was kinda blue.. anyways.. we got our 1st clue went to war memorial, 2nd task walked e whole 25 storey high block in toa payoh and 3rd task was e best!! 2 members had to canoe to the other side of e reservoir and pass e straws to e other members etc.. it e best cos.. it's CANOEING!! haha.. but im aching all over now.. finshed e last station and 2 of our teams emerged in the top 7!! yay!! since we were early by 2 hrs.. we decided to go J8 den return for dinner. before e movie started, we were hanging out in church office looking at e past photos.. so cute!! all so tut and.. i dunno.. haha.. when time was up, we went over to join e rest of e youths frm other churches for THE CLIMB..(it's e name of e movie)

will i ever sacrifice my life for a friend, like derek in e movie..?? i dunno.. but one thing i do know, i HAVE a Friend who died for me..

im glad and thankful dat i've got a Friend who'll never leave me nor forsake me.. everything else will evantually fades away..

2007-03-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

i've finished my recording and should be getting my cd anytime soon!!! yipeee!!! i just found out that my new piano teacher, mrsyeo, plays gameboy!!! i was like Wad?!! just when i thought that it's hilarious and surprising for a 50 year old lady to be playing game boy.. she told me that she has THREE of it and a PSP!!! hippee woman.. lol!!

i still dunno what career i want.. hiaz.. it's time i decide man..

show me the way Lord..

2007-03-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

arghh.. stupid holiday aint a holiday!!! loaded wif homework!!
dont care liao larh!! im gonna enjoy myself!! worry ltr bah!! going crazy..

im gg for recording tml!! see.. i kana pang seh again!! arghh!! oh wells.. wadaver.. cant be bothered to get upset anymore.. it has happened to me too many times. will there ever be just someone, a human, who will always be here for me?? i hope mr right does.. oh wells.. till i find him..

tata.. gg njc for some bio worshop tml morning.. i heard dat it's boring.. man..

2007-03-08T15:51:00.000+08:00

i've once again proven my statement. "only You will be here for me" it's sad, yet comforting. it's sad that friends will evantually pang seh you no matter how close you are to them or how similar u are. im pissed, im upset.. superficial world.. when they've got new friends you're like. forgotten. no matter what they say actions still speak louder than words.. im guilty of doing such things too.. so i cant point my finger at them, but i must still get it out of me lest i errupt.

CAN U JUST GET OuT OF MY LIFE~!
sorry, i dont mean it.. dont take it seriously. i just feel so pang seh-ed today.. i expected it, but it still.. hiaz..

i dont get it.. why must i loose friends that i love most to b at the top?? not exactly loose them, but i just feel.. so lost...i wish i could turn back the clock.. forget it, it's impossible.. i'll have to finish this race only with You..

comforting cos.. i know i can count on You in any situation.. You wont pang seh me! =)

2007-03-04T18:52:00.000+08:00

wad did iwanna blog?? . . . i cant rmbr.. oh wells.. having CNY reunion dinner now..

2007-02-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

im like slacking now.. chatting.. i finished my homework that's due tommorrow tho.. still got bio reflections, chinese review and piano theory.. my exam is next sat!!! i pray that i'll get distintion.. i dont wanna break my record.. hees..
it's funny how one moment i can be super stressed out and next laughing n slacking wif my frens.. mayb im not really stressed out after all?? just dat im upset wif my results?? isit normal to be not doing very well in e beginning?? like an adjustment period?? sigh..

i must go n eat my sago thing!! arhh.. wad is it called?? mommy tried to cook dat but failed.. bleh.. was waiting for it for about 1 hour on e third day of cny.. but we waited in vain man.. im determined to go penang kitchen on fri to satisfy my tastebuds!! XP

2007-02-27T19:12:00.000+08:00

i just composed a new song!! it's not ready but here it is the lyrics.. (for sound please call me XP)

I'm counting on Your grace

You see me everywhere i go
You see the truth and my show
You know how i feel when I'm running low
Fill me, oh Lord..

I'm counting on Your grace to see me through this crazy world
knot Your arms around me in this phase where i am being twirled(2X)

2007-02-27T18:41:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging much.. school's stressing me out.. i think im gonna suffer from depressions, was having suicidal thoughts.. lol.. why cant God just take me out of this materialistic, superficial, competitive and stressful world?? i dont really like being in my class.. all of my classmates are chao competitive larh.. they r somewhat fun.. but i dunno.. just cant click i guess.. mayb i would have been much happier if i opted for arts stream instead.. den i'll do combine bio, chem. elect hist, a and e math and take art.. draw draw draw.. no winner, no loser.. XP if im only taking 7 subjects, i'll probably take music olevels.. i dont think im a sciency person, i cant imagine myself as a doctor or a nurse, an enginneer or scientist.. psychologist and sociologist mayb.. but i enjoy music more!! hiaz.. oh wells.. i'll take one step at a time bah..

counting on Your grace to see me through this crazy world..

2007-02-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

it's been quite awhile since i last blogged.. Finally!! i've moved into my new house! bmt peeps came over this aftnn for lunch, but cam n her fren didnt wanna eat.. bleh. it's specially cooked for u all ya noe.. oh wells.. JAM!! e kids were torturing my drum set.. im glad it survived.. they threw a rubber lizard, which looked extremely real, at me and i screamed out my lungs.. and e kids found so thrilling.. -.-

"u say it best.. when u say nothing at all..." man, it;s stuck in my head..

2007-02-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

i really must thank God for His mercies and ask for His forgiveness.. my comp's working now.. thank God! i was trying to do my research for tommorrow's compo test when e &^%$#@ internet connection had somthing wrong!! questioned my bro what he did to e internet!! argh!! then he say pluck direct.. argh.. cannot find e input. after plugging in the cable, still cannot connect!!!!! so fed up!! bang bang e box, then bang bang e comp. den proof! BLANK!! (ididntnoedatiwassostrong. hees) i slammed e laptop and WTH! den i broke down.. wailling.. for like more than 5 mins.. i thought that it was gonna crash again like e last time where i suddenly couldnt turn on e comp..

as i sat there wailing.. figured out that i was chaoji super upset becoz i've lost all my photos and song and convers and etc.. at that point i was asking God why me ?? why now?? but the thought that hit me back was that all these will come to past.. all will fade away and that i should stop clinging on to these material things and hold on to the eternal God. it's time i start to prioritize again.. putting God first in everything and all these blessings God has given to me aft Him. God can bless one with alot of things but when He wants you to sacrifice it but u dont want to.. it's time to check on your priorities..

Heaven and Earth will fade
but His words will still remain..

2007-01-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

test, test, test and test!!! arh!! had physics today and it was.. bleh! i think gonna fail liao... noooo... nvm! tml got bio. jiao you! school's crazy now.. everyday stay back.. haiz.. oh! discovery studios in bugis is super nice larh! sound so much better than e studio in tampines.. valentine's coming liao.. shalina, happy birth day!! kryssie habing tea party again?? haha.. where is he??? lol!! no time to think about all these stuff man.. actually, still hav some time.. 1 year liao.. oh wells.. let it be oh let it be..

2007-01-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

i havent been blogging for a long time!! wells, busy with school..yupps and school.. and homework and.. yarh.. dat's abt it.. my new house gonna be ready soon!!! cant wait!!! finally my own room that im gonna stay in.. a year full of changes.. new house, new school, new class.. ohh.. i've never met my new piano teacher which i was suppose to 3 wks ago.. but bcos my exams r round e corner ms liang's gonna help mrs yeo replace lesson!!! yyay!!!! gtg nites!

2007-01-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

u knew it was wrong to change e name yet u still did it.. u know u r e last person i expect to do such a thing.. i understand dat u were trying to help.. but still.. it hurts alot alot.. it didnt hurt when i saw u liquid papering away e name.. but hurt lots when i found out dat it was a name tag used by someone else, den u took it and changed it to leanne;s name.. where has ur integrity gone??? if it has hurt me so badly, what more God?? it;s a small matter.. yes i know.. but these things still cause our Father to be unhappy.. leanne's attitude and tone didnt bother me much.. mayb im just too goodytwo shoes and it's unfair for me to expect u to be like me.. im lost.. u'll probably think im making a big fuss out this.. but the fact remains im disappointed.. yes, dere may b alot of maybes n etc.. i think, no ,im sure.. why im upset is because u knew dat u agreed to cheat wif her..

i made it seem like ur such a horrible girl.. but i wanna tell ya dat i still lub ya for who u r n not wad u've done.. and you r not a horrible girl at all.. GIRLYS ALL THE WAY!!!(i've decided not to put girlie like our usual cos i realise dat it spells girLIES. dont lie..) i've got ur christmas card wif me.. suppose to send it over but opps.. X)

2007-01-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

im back from level camp!!! finally nice, hot bath.. and toilet BOWL.. lol! ssc doesnt hab toilet bowls.. spent like 1hr plus washing,scrubbing e muddy clothes and shoes.. i dont believe it!! i wore isabelle;s shoes unknowingly.. dat's like so NOT me!

so this was how it went: i went to e dorm to get my stuff, so had to take off my shoes.. came out, slipped my feet into the pair of shoe, thinkin dat it's mine.. went for challenge valley, happily soak my shoes into e mud, swam in milo pool, and THEN.. wash up time.. i was washing my legs when i saw e reebok logo.. 0.0.. "didnt i wear my new schl shoes??" im sooo smart man.. so smart.. im wearing e missing pair of shoes! -.- went n check if e extra pair was a lotto pair and yes it was.. so confirmed dat it's mine.. hiaz.. blurr blurr.. gotta scrub scrub till it's clean clean.. xi shua shua (2X) woawoa! post camp blues.. milo pool rox! Gloria why u not dere?!?! u missed out lots..
gtg liao.. tml need to report in schl by 7.50am for "meet-the-parents" session.. tata!

2006-12-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

Merry CHRISTmas everyone! i was baking cookies till like almost 2 am last night.. n guess wad?! i forgot to bring it for esther and gang!! arhhgghghghgh!!! went for sjcp christmas service this morning.. quite interesting.. in 2 languages..
esther and i went down to orchard for lunch cos she helping out in CCIS.. but when we arrived.. i dont wanna leave! so i gatecrash and help out.. haha! i didnt register.. oh wells! Steve say can.. team leader say can, den Can larh! lol.. aunty joyce passed me her shirt.. aft a while started to slack.. cos nothing much for us to do liao.. so went round e floats to take photo.. crowd/traffic control is quite fun! haah.. aunty serene sent me home! it was suppose to finish at 1 am but daddy say must b home b4 midnight.. =( so since aunty serene is e only one leaving early, might as well go wif her.. or else i leave at 11 plus but e rest not leaving yet.. i wont wanna go home man.. so now im home..

2006-12-23T12:52:00.000+08:00

CCIS is over!!! im gonna miss prac n u ppl!!! today was a LONG day.. went to schl for sec 1 orientation at 630 so woke up at 545.. i was doing e actual registration and my section had alot of smps girls. or rather ALL expect 3.. and 1 girl didnt come n report so gotta wait till e officee staff. i look so smart in e blazer! hees.. aft reg. esther n i had a lot of time to slack. we went sjcp office and aunty serene got shalom room for us to sleep. at first esther couldnt sleep but evantually she did.. den i woke up to go wee wee, aft dat, we changed place.. now i sleep on e floor, she sleep on e chair.. we went madjack for lunch in our blazer and rina gave me a baloon flower! we looked like some working adults.. lol..
i was shocked/ surprised to see p. lily!!! i didnt expect her to come. and i almost couldnt regconise jamie, she looks so diff.. so cao da now.. and tammy.. all nvr tell me dat they coming.. haha.. dance dance dance.. den eat and make up.. God answers prayers!! every time it seem to rain( asin it;s drizzling) we would pray and aft awhile it'll stop.. bro wore PINK!!! he looks good.. even esther says so..
daddy went up on stage cuz dey asked for those whom birthday is today.. whoa! haha..
aft CCIS, bro n i went for supper wif e rest.. while daddy n mommy went home.. funnipox..

2006-12-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

today's my official last piano lesson wif miss liang.. So sad.. she's been teaching me for like 8 years of my life!! even longer than e number of years in primary school!! if u sum up the total number of hours she has taught me in the past 8 years, i think it'l be longer than any teacher has ever taught me.. hiaz..
8 years ago, when i was in yahama grp class, miss liang stopped teaching in yamaha n taught private.. so she will not b teaching my class anymore.. BUT my wonderful mother went n ask her where she was teaching and i'll follow her.. so for e past 5-6 years i've been going ALL the way to woodlands just to be taught by her.. it's only these 2 years dat she came back to yahama n i continued with her in yamaha.. now she gonna drop some lessons again.. haiz.. i guess she wanna go she'll go.. wad was suppose to happen gotta happen.. she gotta stop teaching me, she gotta stop.. it was suppose to happen 8 yrs ago.. but yea.. it's now taking place.. sigh..

2006-12-18T00:36:00.000+08:00

so much have happened since i last blogged.. so i'll shall just blog abt today.. i afraid i'll get post-CCIS blues.. arhhh!!! before e full dress rehearsal.. the gals and i were practising in Space den went up to sjcp santuary.. next thing iknow, it's over! man~ i dont like this feeling.. it's like a sense of lost.. just feeling ur heart kinda like ache.. den.. i dunno how to explain it but hey performers, u know how i feel! ahh..

i went for sjcp's service tis morning and they had communion.. but i didnt go up to take it cos i didnt feel comfortable.. anglicans n baptist hab different practice.. e congregation in sjcp goes up row by row, take e bread and dips it in e "wine".. but in hbc, we remain in our seats and hab a cup of "wine"and piece of bread.. i think i was not comfortable with going up.. typical singaporean.. haha.. they hab alot of like, standard prayers and things to say.. i find it rather rigid.. oh wells.. we're still serving e same God.. aft service esther babe, prisca, joel, ruth, jk and meself were taking turns to play bmt.. den estherbabe super funni larh! surfs like a tennis player, picks a shuttlecourt like a tennis ball, and hits like normal.. hees.. she looks like a monkey when she tires to pick e shuttle like a tennis ball.. aft bmt we went for dance prac.. weiwei lao shi came in for like only 30 mins and we were habing full dress liao.. most of us forgot some steps.. but not to worry, we can do it! (frmljoy camp XP) 4 more days!! ahhh!!

God is good.. Rina nearly lost her handphone in e aftnn.. she said that she left it in her bag before e performance but couldnt find it when we were about to leave.. we searched e whole of sjcp but still couldnt find it.. so esther and i prayed for Rina.. we wanted to check e Space but we dont hab e keys.. thank God sjcp office has it.. Rina was rather hesitant to go down to e Space but just check larh.. and when we went down.. she found it!!! yay!! thank God for esther, who insisted dat we go down, and aunti susan, derek, jo n bernard who helped to find.. i oso wanna thank God for aunty Serene who's constantly supporting us all e way.. she went down to buy e orange shirt for e remaining gals even though she was very tired and wei wei lao shi helped us in e formation of e dance!! yipppeee!!! thank God for bringin e mission trip peeps back safely..

i think i miss yahui.. tis morning i kept thinking i saw yahui but i was eunice.. haha.. Eunice, u looking more n more like ur sis!! haha.. cya soon!

2006-12-12T20:48:00.000+08:00

God speaks thru people!!! i was just praying to God last night to help me with dance cos lots of things aint done yet... but i didnt tell anyone.. today rina out of the blue smsed me and said that she sensed the Lord telling her to pray for me and dat i have been stress abt dance.. i was like.. 0.0! cool! God's using Rina to speak to me!! how cool can this get?? i thank God for Rina, e dancers, aunty serene who gave us brilliant ideas on e costume and brought us out to chinatown.. another thing i wanna thank God is seeing Esther thru this time of difficulty and now overcomed it with e Lord!!! hurray! Praise God.. God is good..

2006-12-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

woah!~ youth camp rocks!! we went NS at about 8 plus.. sounds weird rite??everyone in my group wondering wad NS meant.. i just found today, like 3 days ltr that it meant Night Safari.. it wasa printed on e back of the ticket.. -.- on e tram, we saw e malayan tigers and it was sponsered by Tiger Balm.. lol!! aft NS, we went to Labrodor park till 2am!! first camp i go that has programme planned till the next morning.. cool.. but everyone was stoning.. den had daohui break! it's been long since i last ate daohui.. i forgot to bring my sleeping bag for camp.. i asked daddy at 6 plus to bring it to sjcp..but he only go at abt 10plus and e gate was locked!! but i was in NS so there was nothing i could do.. so i told him to leave it at e sjcp gate.. he said he left it at e stairs but when we arrive i didnt see anything on e steps.. i was too tired to panic.. haha.. but haha, thank God i found it on e reception table.. i think ruth or aunti doris brought it in.. THANKS! we slept abt 3 plus.. ahh! nearly fell asleep during session.. =P well tim did on e 2nd session.. so did sam, rung, jo on e 3rd session.. haha.. i think i did doze off.. night games on 3rd night was wet!! haha.. we were suppose to "protect" our candles.. in e end most of us got wet.. den e attackers were sent out in pairs.. i think i ran too fast when i went out to attack.. i dropped my water bomb just before i reached.. jam brake larh.. sad man! e water bomb just infront of the enemies boundary.. nvm.. still got keith.. he's zai man.. one shot and e flame was gone! yay!! we got our light sticks!! we making alot of noise.. haha.. woah!! my group got first for this game!! woah!!~~~ waited for quite long for e bath room.. jo(asin jolene) and i sat at e back and laughed our heads off while waiting for e toilet crowd to clear.. i cant rmbr wad we were laughing at.. den my esther babe super fast lar.. i went up and take my clothes, she finish bathing liao..

on e last night of e camp, our shephards r revealed to us.. Serene was my shepard!! she gave me a pink balloon anonymously in e morning and wrote me a note to release it.. haha.. so cute!! aft skits and everything.. it was time for us to part.. so sadz.. ~~ but i stayed another night.. till sunday morning.. aft packing, esther babe and i sat outside the general office where the reverb is bery good! den we sang "how could i live without u" hoping that dat two will turn around and we'll show dem a heart shape.. from our angle dat two look like couple.. but nah.. they not.. den yurubabe joined us and started toking abt wad happened b4..

went parade ground and lie dere to watch e stars.. e guys were playin some horrible music so estherbabe n i decided to sing "Jesus take the wheel" to cover up e horrible song.. haha..den somehow drifted to breaking free.. and they sounded gay.. so gay.. so high pitch.. they oso played wad.. power rangers song.. ahahahaha! back to e old days where we watched powerrangers.. oh before e lie at e parade ground, babe n i were playing wif e flag pole.. rare chance man!! ahh!!! i miss camp liao!! ahh..it was soooo fun!!

i think recently e things that hav happened r too much to be coincidental.. first was doulos, den e dream, went for a evangelism seminar thinking dat it was a bbq.. -.- went to help ljoy camp didnt know dat Ljoy was like an evangelistic programme for kids and nnow e youth camp.. went for youth camp n didnt know dat it was e just say it seminar..

2006-12-07T13:26:00.000+08:00

im back!!! on the first day of camp, we went botanical gardens to play treassure hunt. had ta complete e crossword puzzle with the given clues. so splitted into groups and went about finding e places with the help of a map... im now like an expert lorh, i know almost all the places liao.. X) had a lot of free time during e camp..

second day: we had canoeing.. or isit kayaking??? the one with the seat exposed, not e covered one.. oh wells.. aniway, it was my first time!! for e first round bro was my partner.. later, almost everyone changed their partners.. we had 3 pairs of lovebirds.. lol..just that they cant sing.. haha..im not included.. i went with kenji!! haha.. 7 yr old small boy so cute.. i felt so mature.. =P aft that we went for lunch and had island creamery!!!!! their ice cream rox! thank God for holding e rain. cos when we were on our way, walking to serene ccentre, it started to drizzle and when we arrived it rained.. on e first day as well, God held the rain till our volleyball game was over.. thank God man.. canoeing too, it didnt rain. it was raining before our bbq, but thank God that e rain stopped when were having worship.. God has really been seeing us through this camp, especially e weather..

im gonna go for sjcp youth camp tonight!! i'll b back on sun! and all those going for holiday arh.. dont forget about me.. =(( sobs sobs.. im stuck in singapore.. rmbr me k.. cya.. sobs..

XP

2006-12-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

i thank God for helping me find e chords!! tis all in e cd but not in order so gotta open all e doc. to find but thank God that it was all in one folder,.. very tired liao but still got two more to go! i guess it's these things, that seem minor to us, which we always forget to thank God for.

i oso wanna thank God for my ling ji yi dong brain to rmbr that e files can open at one time. special feature in apple. i thank God for apple!!! ohh and thank God for uncle james who faithfully prints e chords for us(musicians) every sunday and burning all the archives into a cd for me!!

2006-12-04T18:13:00.000+08:00

tml's HBC youth camp.. afterwhich im gonna go for SJCp youth camp. so it'll b a full week of camp for me!!! wohoo!! but i havent packed my things yet.. bye~

2006-12-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

yes! yes! yes!! i got my password.. hurray!! time flies, camp is just in two days time!! oh no~~ im not prepared yet!! i've not print e chords for session and the things to share during devotion.. how?? how?? arhh!!! i pray dat God will help me..

track back abit.. SJCp children's camp was fun!! i found out how similar esther and i are.. my babe!! lol.. my babe is sick and my girlie"s back!! so shld i be happy or sad?? man~~

helpz!! i dunno wad to share! i pray for a still and patient heart to hear what the Lord wants me to share.. do pray for me!! =)

2006-11-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

i went for MTV today!! i hope e steps can fit into schakels!!dint go for Calvary's concert.. pray for the salvation of the lost and that all will hab a personal encounter wif God!!i hope everything went well! =)

2006-11-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

next time if u dont wanna go dont even mention it!@!!!! arh@!!!!! im pissed.. i dont wanna go home den u say go hab coffee opposite.. u parked e car brother wanna go home, daddy say go den give dady e keys oso cannot.. den say dont go ARGH@Q!!!! i feel like taking my shoes and run e estate!!!! irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need vent my irritation somewhree!!!! mayb chocolates will help.. but it's fattening.. who cares..

2006-11-22T17:23:00.000+08:00

ahhh shoots!! i called cheryl's house, asking for cam.. haha .. blurr.. i guess i miss cam..xP
cam!!!! put ur phone properly!!! some more handphone not working!! ahh~

2006-11-22T12:35:00.000+08:00

AHHH!!! im doing my theory homework: composition!!! so tedious.. my brains r gonna crack! well at least im home.. it's rare that i've got no where to go.. it's nice to stay at home.. =) ive been so busy. going to schl almost everyday waking up super early..

yay! for oneUp outing we're gonna go sentosa for cycling, mayb play at e beach den go for a movie, hab dinner and go for CBC's concert together!! im e only one gg from HBC.. rach habing exams soon, mag got PW meeting and boris.. oh wells.. he doesnt wanna go.. nvm. i'll represent all of ya!! lol.. =P

to help or not??

2006-11-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

last night i was just asking God if i should go and help out with the prom night or not since beat is not in town. WOmanpower is needed in such an event. XP if i do help, means that i cant play bmt cos i'll hab to be at sheratons..
then i read e daily devotions for dat day which sunday. Ezekiel 34:11-... in explore it further explained that God will condemn those stronger sheeps who do not help the weaker ones.. in response, it suggested that we write down a list of ways whereby we can help e others.. therefore, in conclusion, i'll go help with prom deco.. sorry folks! bmt some other day ks!

Masking!!!

2006-11-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

haha.. im doing some hydrating mask. lol. i had a weird dream last night.

i was on some unknown mission trip alone with two other experienced missionary, a lady and a guy, whom i just met. we went to a cafe for lunch and we sat at a table for 4. the lady sat on my left and the guy sat infront of me. the seat beside was empty, as if someone else was coming.. so out of curiosity, i asked e guy who we were waiting for. he just answer: Jesus.

0.0 i was shocked, rather scared. in my mind i was thinking: "oh my! Jesus is coming??? coming in human form or as a ghost???" my question was answered not long after. suddenly, there was a super, super, extra bright light on e chair and i just turned to my right to avoid the rays. i tried to peek but the light was too bright. suddenly, like any typical dream, the scene changed. i was alone, ithink, with the bright light, singing praises..

kinda weird.. i wonder if God is telling me anything..

Doulos, Inside out ROX!!!

2006-11-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

inside out was for 2 days and i've worked at the bookstore/bookfair and the kitchen. Cool man!!! the bookstore was an old swiming pool on e ship which was converted to a book store. so the place where they put the uniforms was in like a underground deck or smthing.. it was dim and had a very steep stair case.. didnt take photo cos i forgot to bring my camera on e first day =( i like e toilet! lol.. the flush was not auto but those u see in titanic. looks alittle like those in the kampong. the availibility of the cubicle is not shown with colours:red or green but shown as "Libero" or "Occupated" (did i spell it correctly?? oh wells). i love it!! food on board is also good and different. sliced cheese, some meat idonno wad that is oso sliced and bread and salad and etc.. not somthing dat u get everyday in singapore.. on board, the feeling is totally different. you see ang mohs but they are not neccesarily from e states or london etc they ccould be from Finland, Switzeland, or even S. Africa. cool~ then when i see Asians, i keep thinking that they are from Singapore but their name tag tells it all. it's nice.. a different feeling..

on e second day we went to an "underground church". it was different frm the one in CF camp. this one was scary and quite real. they really lock ya up in a room and start questioning your faith. a batten is used to instill fear in us. Leign frm S. Africa is really good at acting. then i was kinda scared at a certain point when we were in the room where we see our fellow inside out frens get pull out, not knowing where they were going. this was fake, so of course not one gets killed in the process. but as i sat there thinking. " what if these were real??:" wad would my response be??? will i really speak up or just shut up and stay out of anything that i could. im i really willing to die for Christ?? i would want to cos i know that He is preparing a place for me in heaven. but i wouldnt wanna go throught the pain and agony. mayb not yet. when she questioned about my faith, she asked, "Where is your so called god is now? ask him to come and save you!!"although she did not ask me alone, but in a group i was kinda lost for words.. i know He's here with us.. but will i still think, believe and say the same thing when im in a real situation whereby difference in life or death is only as thin as a strand of hair. any wrong move or word spoken could mean death. it's scary.. i pray for a death that isnt painful..

Photoshoot!!! again!!

2006-11-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

grandma as in mommy's mommy won a photo shoot plus make over in a tally match so mommy made an appointment for today. so she decided that we should take a 3 gen shot. yay!! which mean dat i oso can take lor! gonna take more cos mommy got e package.. yippee!!!

Doulos

2006-11-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

so sad.. it rained today so we didnt get to go on e guided tour on the ship =( we also had problems boarding the ship cos of the rain. i thought that it'll be sheltered all the way but nah.. although there were umbrellas i still got drenched. the umbrellas were too small. there was a 15 min intro and after that was free and easy till 415/

as much as we wanna God we cant unless we let Him fill us with His love first. We all have nothing but God is love. ytd during cell, we were just toking abt the phrase ppl always say" love is blind". love is NOT blind, cos God IS love. =) cool.. ytd just talking abt "God is love" and today some guy on doulos shared abt e same thing. not even 20 hrs ago.. haha

because of e rain, no guided tour, so stayed in the book store.. i bought a cd and mommy bought three books. btw my mom went.. haha! aft awhile, we got bored and when to vivio city. Finnally!! VIVIO!! ytd all dont wanna go.. =(.. nvm.. hmmph.. =P
bought a dress from fashion city.. lubs it!! durh~ if not y i buy.. finally got to go pull and bear.. aly's been toking about it.. but she meant the one in taka. vivo has one too!! i wanted e brown razer but no more s.. e lady said that i could ttry e branch in taka.. but ohwells.. nvm.. my dress is nice.. =)

2006-11-11T11:15:00.000+08:00

i think i've watched too much of goong. last night, or rather this morning, i dreamt that i was e Crown Princess.. haha.. and the prince and all the other characters were pretty much e same. so in my dream, i was having some buffet lunch the CrownPrince together with my church friends(including e adults). in e beginning of the drama, the Princess wanna get to know the prince better or likes to stick with him. but the prince would kinda like avoid her. similarly, i, the Crown Princess, wanted to sit with the prince but he delibrately sat two seats away.. in the end i sat with aunte audrey.. haha.. ohoh.. one more thing.. before the lunch on the way there, i saw Lu following me but i just ignored him.. haha. after lunch, i went down one of the many escalators there were. on my way down, i saw the king and the queen dressed up for a wedding dinner going down another escalator on my right, and the queen mother on my left. at the end of the escalator that i was on, i met the secretary and asked where the Crown Prince was. i was told that he was in some shop. because i wanna find out what he's doing, so i went to this particular shop that he was in, instead of the usual shop that i go to. the crown prince was trying on some suit for e dinner and i found somthing matching. tried it on and saw my reflection. it was den that i found out that my face wasnt my face but caijing's face!!! ahahaha.. den i was woken up by daddy.. -.-

back.. and going!!

2006-11-10T18:32:00.000+08:00

bmt today rocks man!! haha. playing with two full courts. haha.. funny~ sat at e coffee shop for more than 1 hr!!! cheryl got hearing probs.. haha..

i realised one thing about meself. i can go anywhere alone like go get e prom materials alone, go bukit timah plaza just to check out e price of e guestbook alone but i can never kill time alone.. nearly die man... lol.. aft lunch i wanted to go aly's hse but she had dance.. so i just took 64 and go down to her hse hoping dat she'll call me in time.. if not i'll just go home.. anyway on e way mah.. so in e end i didnt go aly's hse.. i dropped off at redhill n went dhouby gaut cos i felt like eating auntie annie's!!! now im back and going!! -going for dinner wid e youths!!!

Princess Hour DVD!!!!!

2006-11-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

i finally got e dvd and now i can take my own sweet time to watch. rather than to rush home everyday and be late for cell every friday just to watch Goong..x) lu( as in kim jeong hoon, not lulu) and caijing are super cute!!! there was this episode where lu went to look for caijing in the palace, she sort of like reprimanded lu saying that her status was higher than his and that he should not talk to her in certain manner etc etc.. den lu was almost tearing. his eyes were.. awww~ so sad.. i wanna give him a hug.. xP lol!!!
just when u think it hurts alot to see the one u like, like someone else... it hurts alot alot lots more to see the one you like get hurt, because of the someone he likes..

oh wells.. everything happens for a reason/purpose.. jer. 29:11.. hold on to GOD!!! yeababy~ haha..

"the tide is high but im holding on.. im gonna b your number one.. im not the kinda girl who gives up just like dat~""
haha.. ohwells.. wadaver.. there's more to life..

sick.. haiz

2006-11-07T18:46:00.000+08:00

i think im gonna fall sick soon.. my nose and ears are blocked and my throat hurts!! legs are aching too.. i think it's from the dance prac.. Finally we had our first official dance prac! yay! hungryhungry.. byes.. gonna eat my gyoza now!!

"Girl in your dreams" - M2M

2006-11-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

I was walking down the street one day
Then I saw you I didn't know what to say
You're eyes were shining
You're smile was so kind
When I saw you I wanted you to be mine

Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means

One day you came and talked to me
And you said we are meant to be
I was happy, everything was so nice
But then I found out that everything was a lie

Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means

[BRIDGE]
How could you do this to me
You said we are meant to be
You showed me how to cry
When you told me everything was a lie

Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means

out of place..

2006-11-03T23:46:00.001+08:00

i went for dinner with some of e youths, looking forward to a great time of fellowship. yea, it was. at first.. but subsequently after dinner i started feeling like out of place cos mag n cheryl r always toking about their boi when they talk alone but i got no boi to talk abt so i didnt wanna join their conversation. den e boys r babarians. haiyo boxing each other in the train.-.-
i cant seem to click with them.. i mean like sometimes yar~ i do have fun with them.. but i dunno.. it's just different.. wad's e problem??? it's not like i just knew them or somthing.. i've already known them for years!! den aft we arrive at church, i didnt feel like talking.. so i basically stoned most of e time..

will i ever change church..? like rachel.. but her's is different. she has been called to go coos, not that she cant click with us~ i miss her..=( i click best with her.. when she still with us is like.. cheryl and mag den rachel and elaine.. now elaine's a loner.. =( hiaz.. wad's problem???!! we lack girls!! lol.. x) or mayb i lack sisterly love, like what i get in schl.. i dunno..

oh wells.. i know im put here for a reason and just pray that i wiill have e strength to carry on.. i think im e only abnormal one who has tis kind of problem.. =P

grapes like onions..

2006-11-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

ever tasted grapes with onions??? haha. grandma gave me a plate of grapes and it tastes like onion cos she cut onions just before she cut the grapes! haha. oh wells, interesting taste tho..

victoria cheated my feelings!!! ahh.. im not stupid!!! i've got lu and aly tricked tho .. it's fun man!!! hahaha..

Today, we choreographed only e intro but considered quite alot liao.. yup.. yay! Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you~~

successful!!!

2006-11-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

yay! i did another round of honey cornflakes and it was sucessful! YES! this time the cornflakes stick and it's not too sweet! today i was at Daiso [always $2] in PS before my piano lesson. i saw this reign deer hair band. it's so cute!!! i wanted to buy one for faith, rae and bel. but ohh.. so sad.. i got not enough money. there was only 1 two dollar note in my wallet. oh wells, i guess i gotta wait till the next time when i got money then can buy. =(

2006-10-31T21:15:00.000+08:00

Name 40 Random People You Know

#1:
mommy

#2:
daddy

#3:
kor

#4:
aly

#5:
lu

#6:
kryssie

#7:
cam

#8:
fred

#9:
cheryl

#10:
daryl`

#11:
clarence

#12:
charlene

#13:
barney

#14:
mary

#15:
william

#16:
boris

#17:
marc

#18:
keegan

#19:
kenji

#20:
freya

#21:
aditi

#22:
rachel

#23:
leon

#24:
deb

#25:
john

#26:
dot

#27:
vincent

#28:
angel

#29:
benjamin

#30:
daniel

#31:
felicia

#32:
isabel

#33:
mag

#34:
nic

#35:
jamie

#36:
siyi

#37:
jacinth

#38:
jolene

#39:
sus

#40:
dot tang

Now for the questions

Who is #9 to you?:
cheryl.. a good friend..

Does #12 have a hot older brother?:
charlene doesnt hab any siblings!

Would you make out with #2?:
NO!! not me.. my mom

How about #13?:
NO WAY!!! i wouldnt.. mary might..

or #30?:
nopes

Is #1 your best friend?:
kinda.. mommy know almost all my secrets//

Is #3 cute?:
yea.. kor is chubby!

How about #5?:
lu is e cutest among e four of us..

Or #23?:
nopes.. leon is not ugly

Or #36?:
siyi.. nah~

How did you meet #4?:
aly! we were classmates..`

And #7?:
cam.. pri schl.. cant rmbr

And #18?:
keegan.. he came to church wif leon like years ago..

Did you ever go out with #20?:
yea! just did today!

Or #28?:
nopes.. other than for lunch b4 PTL

Who is #40?:
dot tang..

Do you hug #8 all the time?:
no.. Never..

How about #15?:
nah

Or #25:
never..

Or #37?:
ever..

Do you feel sorry for #11?:
kinda.. clarence is stuck in between 2 sis

Have you ever told #14 you loved them?:
no..

Would #6 and #10 make a good couple?:
lol.. nah~ daryl's too short for kryssie

What about #16 and #28?:
boris and angel???? i dunno.. not bad wad.. guitarist and pianist.. haha

#17 and #22?:
nah~ marc and rachel are cousins..

#24 and #32?:
nopes.. deb and isabel r straight

#33 and #39?:
nopes..read e above

Are #38 and #37 best friends?:
kinda.. it;s e whole bunch of gals

Does #34 drink coffee 24/7?:
no clue man

What is #9 addicted to?:
badminton!!! FF..

Which # would you look best with?:
3.. kor.. haha

Which # would #5 date?:
lu.. i dont think she herself know who she'll date

How about #16?:
boris.. umm.. some preetty gal??

Or #27?:
dunno..

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back to the same blogskin.

2006-10-31T21:13:00.000+08:00

lol.. haha.. i had problems with the previous bear blogskin.. haiz.. so sad.. the tag board always didnt appear so save the trouble and change back to the polka dots! classic! =)

Freedom!!

2006-10-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!!!!!!!!! Exams are OVER!!!!!! i can play hard now!! went and did my first recording today! but it was disappointing.. =(
although the feeling of being in the studio was cool and thrilling, the music was horrible. it was a midi version. very different from the original, which is like so so so so much nicer! the midi version sounded so robotic. yucks. hiaz.. lu said that the music was horrid but my singing was good. THKS! luv ya ppl! i hope im able to get e karaoke version for my other songs. cos the midi version is really awful. no backup singers, nothing! no drums! arggh!!! the thousand miles didnt work out. the midi version was awfully awful. so i changed to break away but i didnt sound good. finally settled with never had a dream come true. sadly also a midi version.. HORRIBLE!! arggh!!! oh wells... i had a great time wif my pretties tho..

we went and take neoprints!! my favourite.. hurray!~! kryssi suggested that we should go changi airport for dinner! and we did!! haha.. chicken rice there is $6.90 per plate! might as well rob the bank.. =P we ate in popeyes..it's cheaper to eat there.. took lots of photos from the mrt station, e escalator, skytrain to popeyes and back to the mrt station!! haha.. on the train back from changi there no body at e front!! so four us sat with our legs stretch on the other seats!!! haha.. it was fun.. freedom! dont hav to care about other people. in the first place, there's no "other people"!!! haha.. yea.. but e crowd started streaming in when we were at tanah merah.
i had to rush home cos uncle wants e camera by today. when i was in the airport, i called to ask where he was. he was busy and said he would call me back. i didnt even get to say anithing to him. so just went home.. i was at kebangan when he called to ask where i was. i told him i was going home from changi airport station and he told me that he just touched when i first called him!! arghh!!! i could have taken a free taxi ride home!! irritating!!! hiaz..

anyway, today was a great day! i thank God for e blessing in my life, especially my parents who can provide me with money, ally, lu and kryssie, my bestiess/pretties!! yay.. luv ya!!

Finally decided on this skin

2006-10-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

For the past three days, I've been trying to edit the html to get the words and its position in the place where I want it to be. However, after awhile I gave up and found the previous blogskin too pinky. yup. so i saw a forever friends blogskin (not this one). i saved it under "My favourites" and hoped that i could some how find the html on my own. Then, miraculously, i found out how the html is being found in Apple. usually in windows, the user had to just click on the bloggermain and ta-da~! Apple is unique. click bloggermain, blogskin appears. click "View" and "View Source". TA-DA~! there! my html!

i changed the blogskin again and finally decided on this one that im having. cos the previous blogsking covered some of my post and the date & etc. could not be inserted. yar so.. YAY! this one. i like this one cos my chinese surname is bear(in eng.) so i chose this bear! =)

just now, we had a mooncake festival party at the void deck, organised by Hosanna. we played "Pass the ball" and the mini soccerball just loves me. it was always with me when the music stopped. haha. so was told to do some stuffs etc. after the games, we had mooncake making demonstration. i didnt know it's so easy. as in it looked easy. maybe i should try. anyone wanna be my gunie-pig??? correct spelling or not arh?? oh wells.. im tired now. bye!

New skin!!!

2006-10-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

Yay!!! finally got my new blogskin. i've been asking some people on how to get a new skin and all 5 told me to go www.blogskins.com.. like who dunoo??? haha i even got an account liao leh.. just dat i dunno how to meddle with the html things and stuff. all of them knew about e html but dunno how to get it in the template. my comp is too advance for html. everytime the html is suppose to appear, the blogskin appears.

sadz..

2006-09-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

i dunnoo.. just feeling sad recently for no apparent reasons.. i may be laughing smiling etc, but just still sad.. something's wrong and i dunno wad it is. Perhaps it's due to exams. Maybe because i keep reminding myself (subconsiously) about small unhappy stuff. i guess i'll need to be more positive..

Recently, God seems so far away. i cant seem to be able to catch what He's trying to say to me thru daily bread. Everything seems bad. He doesnt seem to b working in the youth but i gotta hav faith in His Word that He is faithful and will make all things beautiful in His' time. i wonder where has my yearn to read His Word gone. the kind of feeling i had when i first started hearing, have i become immune or something?? i wanna go back in time, where everyday n i mean everyday, i hear. cos now it seems dat He only speaks occasionally. but i know that He speaks, just that i cant hear. Whats wrong??? im so afraid i'll lose my faith in Him. if i do, i'll be miserable or worse..

i pray that i'll never ever lose my faith and open my heart & ears to Him. Believe that He'll make things beautiful in His' time and He has a purpose in putting me in whatever situation/place and i'll have to trust Him.

i hope that this post will not be a stumbling block to ur walk with God but pray and believe that He'll help me in this situation. i believe that He's preparing me for something better and greater in e future.

new site

2006-09-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

www.songsofus.blogspot.com

yay, yay! aly and i finally got our blog for our own original songs! it's the link. go check it out! some are written by aly, others by me! hurray!!

unfortuanately, these songs arent recorded so i wont be able to play it unless u can sponser us a recording studio... and nopes my so called album wont hab our original songs.. aww.. it's okie.. i'll sing my original songs when i've become a professional. x)

im just so happy!! i love to write my own songs because i sing what i feel and it feels great! like sometimes ya dont have someone to talk to as in a real person ( of course God is real & always here, but sometimes i'll need a solid figure to talk to), it'll b weird to talk to yourself rite???... so might as well sing it and sing it out LOUD! =P

Even besties might get sick of hearing ur secrets, so sing it out LOUD! not many ppl will noe it's ur secrets. they'll probably think its some song.. so yea..

still got abt 3 more songs coming up! one of which is a song of encouragement. i like dat one. it's abt gg to God when ur weary and down... yupyup.. do check it out when it's up.. the rest are.. ya.. nothing very special, just.. umm.. see it and u'll know. Remember, do NOT "coppe" any of e songs arh.. DONT add funni melody to e lyrics! or we'll come after u!!

haha.. im having english exam tml.. so do pray for me and everyone taking e exam. Pray dat God will help us concentrate and give us a good use of vocab for our compo. For our compre and summary, pray dat we'll be able to answer accordingly and we'll be able to find all e points for our summary. =) thks in advance! nites

2006-09-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

wells.. im blogging again. it seems that i've got more time to blog near e examinations.2 blogs hab been posted within 2 days. i usually blog like once in a blue moon.. =]

i've been staying in the school library to study till 5.30. aly and i would always be chased out of the library at 5 but mrs chong (i think dat's her name), the librarian, is nice enough to turn the air con at the study area on for us to continue studying. i still prefer the library to the study area. it's quieter inside. the study area would be nicer without the irritating air con, which seems faulty. the silence would always be broken by the "gong-ong" sound from the air con - for those who dont get it. "gong-ong" sound is from the air con engine or some thing larh.. aiyo. if u get it, good. if u dont, too bad..=P yup. before we leave the library, we would switch off the air con and drop the remote control at the new book drop. k not exactly new - it;s been there for the past 5-6 months. ive never returned my book thru the book drop. instead of returning books thru the book drop, i return remote controls. X)

after chatting with some of my frens, i realise i dont like seeing "kk". =( so if ya ever tok to me to kk me. i'll find ya impatient =P

exam period.

2006-09-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

it's exam period again.. yup and the four of us are going to study together again! yay!! today we were suppose to study together but i had english sup. so by the time i was ready, kryssie left oledi.. hiaz.. oh wells.. got two weeks more!
i cant wait to go for the recording!!! im gonna cut my own album! haha. my dream come true! i intend to sing "A thousand miles", "if i aint got you", and 2 more songs, which i hav not decided. i wanna sing "Start of something new" from high school musical but dont hab duet partner larh. my bro cant sing for nuts. ANYONE OUT DERE WANNA SING??? lol.. oh wells.. if i can find someone to sing with me den i'll sing dat song.. eh but please arh, dont rubbish. i think i'll need to hav some auditions first. haha.. yupyup.. cant wait!! this is my birthday present!! which is like sooo late.. but oh wells.. AHHH!!! YAY!! ahahhhaahah.

Prayer request: concentration and good time management for all who are taking exams.. especially those taking Os, As, streaming and PSLE.. yup

Thanksgiving: EVERYTHING! from the air i breath to my wonderful friends and family to YOU! =) u name it! [bad stuff are also included in this package xP]

Pan cake!

2006-09-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

I woke up this afternoon at 12.15. heez.. so i a Brunch instead of my breakfast. Grandma bought min jiang kueh and the huge chi kueh from Pei kio market for me. the chi kueh was about the size of my hand. First time eating it. but i dont find it fantastic or anything. just ok.

i dont feel like studying.. argh!

Grandma was bored so i suggested that we go and make pancakes for "lunch". not quite lunch but ya.. teabreak. i didnt noe she got so many barang barang. we dont hab an oven so we dont bake but she has everything that you need. From the measuring cups to the rectangular frying pan. u name it. maybe i should ask mommy to buy an oven or all these utensils will be white elephants...

yea i should

Yay! STINKS!

2006-09-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

haha. Today was fun. I went ice-skatin with dot. She tried to to teach me how to do a spin. haha but i havent master the basic and now i am learning how to spin. funni~ i must have looked very clumsy. heez. We had lunch in Fujiice Palace and we took neoprints!!! YAY!! my favourite! haha.. yup..

haha. Today STINKS! last night, my parents came home and i dont wanna talk to them. man they STINK! cos they ate durian!! goodness. when i was in the MRT train this morning, someone around me ate durian before he/she boarded the train. STINKO! i still cant figure out how i tolerated the smell. aniway, i went to aly's house after skating. her fridge STINKS too!! =S i told her to close the fridge as soon as she opened it, that is how bad the smell was.
after all these, i went home and opened my fridge and nearly fainted.. there's a cup of durian pudding, which grandpa bought, now the whole fridge STINKS!! im not gonna talk to mommy. She just ate the durian pudding! argh! STINKY!!
oh wells, i just hope that she'll not burb in the middle of the night and Stink the whole room. or i'll have to sleep in the hall..

i confused my feelings with the truth

2006-09-04T19:32:00.000+08:00

fairytales do not happen in real life. i thought they do...
___________________________________________________________

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
'Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

[Chorus #1:]
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me feel
Like I could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

[Chorus #2:]
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe
That I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
while I was falling
And I didn't mind

Because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
___________________________________________________________

i guess this is just part of growing up..

updates on musical!

2006-08-07T17:32:00.000+08:00

i know it was over dayss ago, but it's better late then never.

we only saw the sunlight for half an hour for two continuous days. by 8 in e morning, we would be jailed in Victoria Theatre until 10 in the night. it's quite miserable to not be able to see light for the whole day. VT is super cold man. during the performance my hands were like ice. i had to go down to the toilet to get some warmth from the hand dryer. the preview show was our first full run. teachers' feedback: not too bad for the first full run. =)

im glad that we only have two shows. if not, i would have died from heart attack. the first few songs of every show is so nerve racking, especially the opening and solo piece. anticipating miss tan's tempo was the worst. 1,2. 1,2,3,4 and there i go..
i guess i was having stage fright. i'll feel quite warm but my hands were as cold as ice. however, the fun part comes when it's curtain call. we finally get to be in the light after being kept in the dark for so long. yay! after the show aly and krystle brought me a flowers!!! so pretty!! it was 4 pink roses, representing me,lu,aly and kryssiiee. after the night show mommy gave me 3 gerabera(i think) and sam n all gave a rose as well! hiazz.. just when the fun begins, the musical has to end.. so sad.. i wanna join next year!! i must say that God has blessed this musical and saw me through. considering the last minute work, it was a good one.

my flowers have just withered. they all brown and pathetic. thats the sad part of recieving flowers..

im not sick!

2006-07-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

well, wednesday i told granny that my throat itchy, so she gave me some medication from the last visit to the doctor, which was months ago. sebsequently i was okie. on saturday, i lost abit of my voice. they insisted that i was sick and i needed to go and see the doctor but i always replied: "im not sick!"

during breakfast i told mommy that im fine. "NO girl, grandma said that you were sick". oh fine~ so we went to the clinic, got e medication and they r happy. i refuse to take e medicine coz im fine! and now see! i'm fine and they are sick. so the moral of the story: STOP TELLING PEOPLE THAT THEY ARE SICK. COZ YOU'LL PROBABLY BE THE ONE GETTING SICK.

i know they meant well but still. i just dont want to rely on medication. im afraid that i only rely on medication. wouldnt God heal me? yea, He did. what about mommy? is she relying too much on medicine? or did God give her the intelligence to take medication to feel better/get well? this is so confusing!! ahh.. He is beyond comprehension. but whatever happens, i believe that it was planned.

im now trying to get my exam date changed. the letter has been sent in and i pray that it'll be approved. miss tan doesnt want me to have anything on the day of musical. imagine if i were late for e show. "dear ladies and gentlemen, we have a slight delay because our pianist is has not arrived yet". hahaahah..

(none)

2006-07-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

i'm going to be so dead! i just found out yesterday during piano lesson that my exam is also on 2 Aug!! hows...? zen me ban??!!! miss tan gona kill me too!! ahhh!!!! how i'm i going to cope with two major stuff (wadaver you'll called it) musical and exam, all happening on e same day??!!! NOOOO!!! oh God please help me cope..

i guess i'll just do my best and leave the rest to God. my future is in His hands.

i was just having a girlie talk with aly and we both agreed on somthings. 1) crushes are kinda silly/stupid. after all the fantasy of being bf n gf, the increasing heart beats, all you get is disappointment cos they may not/will not love you back the way you want them to and there will not be a fairytale. my point is, don't waste too much time on crushes. no doubt it is fun to have a crush and talk about them, you'll probably be thinking of them almost all your time. but sometimes, it's hard.. i'm not exactly thinking right now because it's my bed time already. 2) We have great minds. Great minds think alike! x)

Good nites

Revelations 3:20

2006-07-10T16:10:00.000+08:00

it feels so good to be back with God. i realised the Word has become very important. just a 2 days without having daily devotion caused my mood to change so much ( becoming irritated easily etc.) i can't put to words how irritated, tired i felt. im typical human-only treasure the things one has after losing it.

sunday's daily bread really touched me. i felt God speaking to me.before that, it seemed that God was so far and no where to be found but actually it was my fault. the verse for that day was Revelations 3:20 "Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me." Jesus is already standing at the door and knock, yet i thought that He was so far and no where to be found. He is knocking on my door, but what was i doing? i was getting irritated and felt empty. Now i experienced it myself and understand how it feels like to feel empty. I've always heard people saying: "without the Word/God, you will not find joy and will feel empty" and i will just be like "ok.." it's really different when you experience God yourself. it's really different. People around me can tell me lots and lots of things but not have any impact or it's just another head knowledge. Only God's spirit is able to move people.

usually, Rev 3:20 would be used by evangelists, sharing with unbelievers to open their doors, so i thought that explore would talk about us reaching out to our friends etc. but i was wrong! from explore (word for word): "these words are frequently used by evangelists, appealing to unbelievers to open their hearts to Christ. But look again. Jesus is not addressing unbelievers at all, but members of a local church (v14)! Jesus wants to get back inside the lives of Christians who have become 'lukewarm'." i was like.. 0.0 i felt as if the book was written for me, to me! amazing how God speaks isn't it? i thank God for the people who wrote at the Explore sections to share with us.

Open up your doors and let Him in. you'll be amazed by the kind of joy He can give.

what kind of youth day is this??!!

2006-07-03T18:39:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 730am to get ready to go back school for musical rehearsals. hiayo.. what holiday is this??? still have to go back school. the whole school was so quiet. when i was at the bus stop going to school, people were staring at me, in the green polka dot. they seemed to be thinking, "why is this girl going to school on youth day?"... so irritating. everything.

when i reached home, i was suppose to practice my piano but instead, i took out my electronic drum set or drum pad(wadaver u call it) and got stuck for 2hrs+.. x) i've got some new tips from yeelay (drummer).. heez..

what a boring holiday.. aniways.. dats all folks

some time to spare

2006-06-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

haha.. finally got abit of time to update my blog. it's been quite a while since i last blogged. yup.. i'm still busy with musical rehearsals. i was just practising "sometimes you cant do it alone". nice song but very difficult to play lehx. haiz.. im now sitting on my piano chair typing. haha. i'm trying to aim to sleep at 930 in order to get 8hrs of sleep but i think it's almost impossible. it's already 830 and i havent bathe coz i just finished eating dinner and my island creamery Reverso. it's the best ice-cream you can ever find!! haha.. blogging is good.. x) cos it keeps record of events that happened etc. was just looking at my past posts. kinda funni. haha. probably a few weeks down the road i would find this post funny too!. heez..

first day of school was boring. stoned for 3 periods of art. half the class went down to the art room to help Mrs Lo while the other half stayed in class. i had a girlie talk with Lulu.. haha.. now i know.. haha.. yupp.. next up was English. Miss Kaur is our form teacher!! yay!! she's also our PE teacher.. i think we'll be very fit after her lessons. haha. during lesson, we did all the admin work etc. and she wants to do filing.. -.- haiz.. oh wells, what to do.. actually filing isn't that bad. it's only bad when your papers are all over the place.

sometimes i just feel so tired of practising, i feel like giving up and not play in the musical. the long hours of rehearsals are like never ending.. i guess i'm still in it is because i want to know how far i can stretch myself.

CF camp was great!

2006-06-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

as usual, CF rocks!! learnt lots, played lots.i did not go for e 3rd session because i had to go for the musical prac. hiaz.. aniway, i've learnt that underground churches tore their bibles and shared it among themselves. we went to Yaui's "underground church". it was kinda funny but wasnt meant to be. oh wells.

wet games(captain's chicken) on sat was disgusting. i could feel the cracked bones when i pick up the chicken. eww. when the chicken lands on the ground, i could hear "splat". sick, i noe, but we had fun! this is something you would do only in sec schl. =) lots of fun things happened. so much that i cant possibly type everything down.. the game ended when the chicken head dropped off. =S

seems so long ago

2006-06-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

the last time i blogged was 4 days ago, but it seems like so long ago. i bought my new shoes on sat, wore them on tues. badminton was fun! cheryl's lil cussies were so cute. he's good man for a kid. can thrash people at such a young age. =P haha. i told him that i was a CFer (meanin member of CF), he heard "F-er". haha. so cute! then cheryl n i were like, "no,no". it took us quite awhile to explain to her lil cussie cox we couldnt stop laughin. haha. about the girl. well, she's quiet, shy. it took her quite a while before she talked to us, or rather say a word. haha. she's like me when i was her age. when i was her age, i liked to play badminton but my bro was so much better than me, i did not like to play with him. =) im not so far off now. =P aft 1 yr (or less) of bmt training.. haha. i got to thrash kor. ONCE. not bad eh.. haha x)

oh wells. i guess sports is not my type. i like to do performance. esp when i get to put up a great show after all the practices n etc. i miss choir!!! cant sight sing now.. hiaz.. how sad. aniways, im now involved in a schl musical!!! but i not singing. im playing the piano. i feel so cheated! they said that they wantedd girls who can improvise, so i went for auditions, got pass and now, i got a whole lot of scores with black notes.. -.- asking a grade 4 to play those cheem stuff.. i wonder how im gonna get pass this. [only by God's grace]. it's gonna be tough but i'm sure it's gonna be fun too!

X men 3 was good. i understood the show without my kor. lol. cox usually i'll ask him alot of questions esp for movies like LOTR. haha. Jean Grey looks like a witch. i like her maroon hair tho. Mistque(or wadaver dat blue girl is called) looks prettier as a human. haha. and i like Scotts' jeans. nice man. lol. oh yar, not forgetting Storm's hair. super nice. mayb i should get e same hair cut. =P

CF camp starts tommorrow!4D3N. i've got my most of my stuff in my bag. and nopes, i dont have a luggage. it's gonna be the smallest bag i've taken for camps (abt a size of a shopping bag). the theme for this yr's camp: Experincing God. group names: summer, winter, spring, fall. haha. i think the grp names tie in very nicely with the theme. Experiencing God in different seasons of the year.

i pray that this in camp, we will experience God n put to action what we r going to learn.
sometimes He seems so far away but i know that He's always here by my side. just that im not listening closely enough.

new shoes!!!!

2006-06-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

yay!!! i bought my new sport shoes today!! i think it's so cool larh. i lurbs it, from Adidas and it does not have any shoe lace at all. there's a something at the back of the shoe where i control the width of the "shoe hole". it's so cool!!! it's the best pair of shoe i've seen so far. i intended to do my homework in the morning before going out, but as usual, by the time i get ready bath n etc. time to go! yea.. so i didnt do my homework to today.. hee..

aly was my sister for the day.. haha. we went n pick her up to go Queensway with us. she's crazy over bags and go "so nice!! i love it". the best thing is, she says the same thing at about the same bag at every other shop we go -.- ok, enough of her.. this is MINE blog, i shld be talking about MYSELF. yarh my shoes!!! i lurve them, cant wait to wear them. bought shoe bag to go along too! aft dat, went orchard, have dinner and shop again!!! Elle was on 40% sale for UOB card members, so i bought a razer back tee at $10.. yay!!

im veri tired now.. find out frm me if u wanna noe more.. x) so long ppl.. so long, farewell, it's time for me to go! x).. *just finish arranging CP pracs* stress... haiz.. good nites, or rather good morning.. =P

distracting home..

2006-06-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

wells.. i did do may home work. i did my chinese and science. good progess.. heez.. i woke up at about 10.40 cox ying called me just becox her bro got finally admit dat he got a girlfren.. -.- i dont get it. why does she get so excited about her bro havin a girlfren. i mean come on larh. he's old enough to get one (tho some ppl say still young). she say i'll understand her excitement when my kor gets a girlfren. Fine~. i guess i'll be too busy with my own probs by then. my kor is only 1 yr older than me. i might have a boyfriend even before he gets a girlfren. haha. i think my mom veri cool. she says that it's fine to have a boyfriend now- as long as i can manage my studies n time. always aim to have only 1 boyfren says mommy. so that the 1st person ya hold hands with n wadaever lovers do will be ya husband. that's SOOO true! so ppl open ur eyes before u choose 0.0 haha...

okokok... enough of these for now..

yea.. my home is just too distracting. when i want to do my homework, some how the most messy table and cupboards become so interesting when usually its unsightly.. i spent 1hr clearing my table (not really mine, but oh wells) before embarking on my greatest challenge during the holidays.. heez.. in less than 1/2 hr, some how, my hands went onto the piano covers n the next thing u know.. im playin the piano.. x) my house is just SOOO distracting. i think i'll be worse once i get my new guitar... hiazz. when i was doing my chi compo, i took 15min per paragraph n at every paragraph i would walk in n out... haiyo.. i dont know how im gonna do for my exams.. aniways.. i hope i can finish my homework before school starts.. i think i prefer school term where homework is evenly spread out.

went to school AGAIN

2006-05-31T20:29:00.000+08:00

arrgghh.. school... again.. wad kind of holiday is this???!!! sigh.. went back for english oral todae.. i think i did badly cox i took too long to answer my teacher's questions and i dont even know what i was talking about.. oh no... it's okie.. at least i pulled through the exam. i'll just have to leave the rest to God..

i have not done any of my homework. tommorrow shall be the day of HOMEWORK!!! let's see if it'll really happens.. heez..

i was so blurr ytd.. aiyo.. i was going home from vocal lesson, taking the train, was so comfortable at my seat that i forgot to alight... i guess i was falling asleep.. haha

back from camp! again.. but a day camp

2006-05-29T18:08:00.000+08:00

slept at 12am, woke up at 630am... goin to school on the first day of holiday! wad is this???!!! isnt today suppose to be a holiday? why im i still going to school? holidays are just for show... yea...

i slept for almost 1/3 of e evaluation session.. haha. when freya n ulin was lying on their bellys writing, i used their backs as my pillow.. heez.. it was fun! Brenda & Jinger were like, "Elaine! Stop sleeping!". haha i went huh? orh! den went back to sleep again.haha. but of course i only slept when my teacher was not around. i did contribute to the discussion k.. i toked to them.. haha.. in my sleep.. =P

oh ya.. conference on fri n sat was great man! one thing that i learnt was that, i can never love others with my own love/strength. i need to ask God to teach n give me love to love others. which i think it's very true but i never thot of it dat way. no regrets for going for this conference man... i was hesitating at first coz i thot i would be so extra if i go for this conference, which was meant for youth leaders/teachers. but thank God, i did not feel extra at all when i went for e conference. =) i wanna go for more of these conferences and learn more!

back from camp!

2006-05-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

man! y did it happen again???? wrote the whole lot then accidently clicked something and poof, the whole lot disappeared... haiz.. aniways

"SUPER SUPER, SOLID SOLID, SUPER SOLID, SOLID SUPER..." haha.. thanks to our coach!
the coaches are super solid man!!!haha.. super fun, super sporting, super nice (only some, who gave answers... hees..) and they served us food!!!

why must camp end so early?? should make it a 5days 4 nights camp instead of a 3days 1night camp... i wonder if i will be able to take the long duration of the camp. x) we had to stay only on the second day.

on the first day we had amazing race in east coast park.. it was so tiring.. we ran from one end to the other, vice versa. it'll be fun if they allowed us to cycle or rollerblade. the first thing i did when i reached home was to bathe, eat then sleep. i was super tired...

second day: Dragon Boating!!! yay!! when we rowed to the middle of the waters, sat at the end of the boat and started rocking... to my surprise, we didnt capsize. WE ROCK!!=P haha. this year's batch will have to be retained.=( haiz.. the teachers dont wanna promote us because we "attacked" them. haha. come on larh, the battle was not fair lorh... they had cotainers n we only had our hands n legs... after the rowing, we were soaking wet. we rinsed ourselves and changed but i still felt uncomfortable. the poor bus uncle would have to clean the whole bus cox we wet it.. aiyo.

we had campfire in the air-conditioned hall. haha. the coaches used candles to light up the campfire. very hot arh.. haha x)
during campfire, everyone was hyper.. lots of energy was put into dancing, singing, cheering. it'll be great if these energy could put into worshipping the Lord.. sigh..

the next day, we were dimissed. i went home to sleep and did my weekly routine (gg 4 piano lessons). so here i am updating my blog. =)

Jesus take the wheel by Carrie Underwood

2006-05-21T23:03:00.000+08:00

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It would been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

HBC family day

2006-05-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

yea... today is hbc first (i think) family day... we went pulau ubin.. granny n grandpa came along too.. went chek jawa but kor & e other youths went for e race... ive got no regrets gg for chekjawa instead of joinin e youths... cox it's very hard to get a slot to go chekjawa... now dat deres a chance might as well go... e race can go any other time...

we went in e morning.. so it was low tide... when we were half way through e walk i wondered if e tide would just come in n drown us... haha... appparently it didnt or i wouldnt b here typing... haha... we saw a sea anemone eating a crab... it looked kinda weird.. a crab in a middle of a anemone... haha.. also saw other weird stuff like sea cucumber which look like kiwi and sea cocroaches.. it was disgusting, it was crawling all over e rock.. eww.. n dere were alot of crabs livin under e rock, small ones...

aft e walk, we went back to e central by van... i wore old shoes so i threw them away coz it was too muddy to b cleaned... while waitin for e other grps of e amazing race to come back, mag, myself and a few others went to cycle... we took so long to get back dat e adults sent ppl to look for us... haha.. e adults thot we got lost n sent e organisers to look for us... so cool larh... i havent got lost b4... haha... yups it was fun... heez... =P when we reach e restaurant (which looked more like a coffee shop), e adults were already eating their lunch... haha

first thing to do when i reach home was to bathe!!! yea i did... den i took my beauty sleep my air con room...

time to go for rally prac!!! today e singers joined us for prac... kinda different... cox dere was more than one voice.... haha.. i actually forgot e sequence of e song, when we just had prac ytd... haiyo... pray hard dat it doesnt happen on 27 may... haha... at e end of e prac, we broke into grps of 3 or 4 to pray... yea..

pls pray along wid us(e singers n musicians)... pray for ppl comin for e rally n conference, especially e pre-believers... pray for e health of us, especially e singers' voices...n last but not least e speaker, pray dat God will use him mightily...

e rally is ar Calvary Baptist Church (near potong pasir mrt station) on 27 may 06 frm 7pm-9pm.. dont hestitate to come.. u'll nvr noe wad u can learn or experience.... =)

so blurr

2006-05-16T20:35:00.000+08:00

todae is marking day but i had to go to schl for farewell meeting... could enjoy e break but i bcox i so blurr e whole mornin n aftnn wasted..

arhhh!!! todae suppose to hab farewell meeting... i went at 1.45 but guess wad? i saw gloria n jokay coming down frm sjcp stairs n dey ask me "how come u r here?"... i was puzzled larh, dey were suppose to b at meetin oso lor...
den dey tell me meetin was at 930.. my jaws dropped.. how could i make tis kind of mistake!!! e farewell is tis thurs leh... ahhh!!!

i called aly n she suggested dat i go pooh's hse.. yea i did.. den we went wisma for tea wid pooh's mom n sisters... thick chocolate toast is nice man... but so fattening... i wore a long (which is like so rare) skirt cox of e cut i got frm ytd's blading... couldnt wear jeans cos it'll touch e wound and it hurts... *snob snob* i was surprised dat i look okay... i thot i will look weird in long skirt cox of my height... aniways, back to wisma... pooh bought a magazine dere n now she's broke n she still owes me money!!! hiaz... shop a while den ltr her dad came to pick them n i went home n go 4 vocal lesson

oh yar.. ytd's blading... crazy larh! walk frm kemangan (did i spell it correctly?) to east coast park.. can die wan larh... wonder how aly n her church frens walk dere...

back to gg for vocal lessons...

i was so lazy to walk n i decided to get kor to bring my book to bugis n den i go straight to intl plaza.. i was broke too n ask him for money to buy dinner.. but guess wad?! he pulled out a 2 dollar note n left... thanks alot man...
aniways... i wasnt hungry

i was crazy enough to sit a e station n wait just for a train which has a seat... was so tired larh...

aft lesson mommy picked me up n we went to mustafa till 11pm... its e best place to go man! 24/7, everythin oso hab.. frm shoes to electronic equipments.... when u need to buy something, just remember "mustafa"... hahahhaha

Exam period. where the 4 of us grew closer

2006-05-13T01:55:00.000+08:00

tis is my first post!!! haha
im just too happy i guess... haha

Exams are over!!! well almost... onli HE left...
hiaz dunno good or not

during exam, 4 of us hab e same break so we always spent our time together...
sharin probs, funni stuff, gettin entertained by pooh... haha.. i love this man!!! but exams gonna end soon...
wish dat tis can go on for e nxt few yrs... but hiazz...nvm...
God has a plan for evrything...

kinda wierd but
i actually enjoyed havin exams...

ytd was e best man! we got to spent abt 9 hrs together.. i love this!!! aft our last paper, well almost, we went to
play bmt together, had lunch n dinner...
we finally got to go out together... i was quite surprised dat lu's mom allow her to stay for dinner...

spent e whole day together!!! so unexpected... whole day... i thot afew hrs will b good enough...
but wow!
God is soo good... gave me more than wad i wanted...

i guess e reason God placed us in diff classes is for us to cherish our time spent together...
ytd, we were even tokin abt startin a cell by just e 4 of us... haha...
i dunno... we'll see how it goes... all is in His hands... =)

i thank God for exams... coz durin tis period of time, we really grew closer...=)