Name: Elaine .b'dae: 15 Aug . hobbies: singing, playin PIANO and BADMINTON . gender: Gal .
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i dunnoo.. just feeling sad recently for no apparent reasons.. i may be laughing smiling etc, but just still sad.. something's wrong and i dunno wad it is. Perhaps it's due to exams. Maybe because i keep reminding myself (subconsiously) about small unhappy stuff. i guess i'll need to be more positive..
Recently, God seems so far away. i cant seem to be able to catch what He's trying to say to me thru daily bread. Everything seems bad. He doesnt seem to b working in the youth but i gotta hav faith in His Word that He is faithful and will make all things beautiful in His' time. i wonder where has my yearn to read His Word gone. the kind of feeling i had when i first started hearing, have i become immune or something?? i wanna go back in time, where everyday n i mean everyday, i hear. cos now it seems dat He only speaks occasionally. but i know that He speaks, just that i cant hear. Whats wrong??? im so afraid i'll lose my faith in Him. if i do, i'll be miserable or worse..
i pray that i'll never ever lose my faith and open my heart & ears to Him. Believe that He'll make things beautiful in His' time and He has a purpose in putting me in whatever situation/place and i'll have to trust Him.
i hope that this post will not be a stumbling block to ur walk with God but pray and believe that He'll help me in this situation. i believe that He's preparing me for something better and greater in e future.
-ThE EnD-
www.songsofus.blogspot.com
yay, yay! aly and i finally got our blog for our own original songs! it's the link. go check it out! some are written by aly, others by me! hurray!!
unfortuanately, these songs arent recorded so i wont be able to play it unless u can sponser us a recording studio... and nopes my so called album wont hab our original songs.. aww.. it's okie.. i'll sing my original songs when i've become a professional. x)
im just so happy!! i love to write my own songs because i sing what i feel and it feels great! like sometimes ya dont have someone to talk to as in a real person ( of course God is real & always here, but sometimes i'll need a solid figure to talk to), it'll b weird to talk to yourself rite???... so might as well sing it and sing it out LOUD! =P
Even besties might get sick of hearing ur secrets, so sing it out LOUD! not many ppl will noe it's ur secrets. they'll probably think its some song.. so yea..
still got abt 3 more songs coming up! one of which is a song of encouragement. i like dat one. it's abt gg to God when ur weary and down... yupyup.. do check it out when it's up.. the rest are.. ya.. nothing very special, just.. umm.. see it and u'll know. Remember, do NOT "coppe" any of e songs arh.. DONT add funni melody to e lyrics! or we'll come after u!!
haha.. im having english exam tml.. so do pray for me and everyone taking e exam. Pray dat God will help us concentrate and give us a good use of vocab for our compo. For our compre and summary, pray dat we'll be able to answer accordingly and we'll be able to find all e points for our summary. =) thks in advance! nites
-ThE EnD-
wells.. im blogging again. it seems that i've got more time to blog near e examinations.2 blogs hab been posted within 2 days. i usually blog like once in a blue moon.. =]
i've been staying in the school library to study till 5.30. aly and i would always be chased out of the library at 5 but mrs chong (i think dat's her name), the librarian, is nice enough to turn the air con at the study area on for us to continue studying. i still prefer the library to the study area. it's quieter inside. the study area would be nicer without the irritating air con, which seems faulty. the silence would always be broken by the "gong-ong" sound from the air con - for those who dont get it. "gong-ong" sound is from the air con engine or some thing larh.. aiyo. if u get it, good. if u dont, too bad..=P yup. before we leave the library, we would switch off the air con and drop the remote control at the new book drop. k not exactly new - it;s been there for the past 5-6 months. ive never returned my book thru the book drop. instead of returning books thru the book drop, i return remote controls. X)
after chatting with some of my frens, i realise i dont like seeing "kk". =( so if ya ever tok to me to kk me. i'll find ya impatient =P
-ThE EnD-
it's exam period again.. yup and the four of us are going to study together again! yay!! today we were suppose to study together but i had english sup. so by the time i was ready, kryssie left oledi.. hiaz.. oh wells.. got two weeks more!
i cant wait to go for the recording!!! im gonna cut my own album! haha. my dream come true! i intend to sing "A thousand miles", "if i aint got you", and 2 more songs, which i hav not decided. i wanna sing "Start of something new" from high school musical but dont hab duet partner larh. my bro cant sing for nuts. ANYONE OUT DERE WANNA SING??? lol.. oh wells.. if i can find someone to sing with me den i'll sing dat song.. eh but please arh, dont rubbish. i think i'll need to hav some auditions first. haha.. yupyup.. cant wait!! this is my birthday present!! which is like sooo late.. but oh wells.. AHHH!!! YAY!! ahahhhaahah.
Prayer request: concentration and good time management for all who are taking exams.. especially those taking Os, As, streaming and PSLE.. yup
Thanksgiving: EVERYTHING! from the air i breath to my wonderful friends and family to YOU! =) u name it! [bad stuff are also included in this package xP]
-ThE EnD-
I woke up this afternoon at 12.15. heez.. so i a Brunch instead of my breakfast. Grandma bought min jiang kueh and the huge chi kueh from Pei kio market for me. the chi kueh was about the size of my hand. First time eating it. but i dont find it fantastic or anything. just ok.
i dont feel like studying.. argh!
Grandma was bored so i suggested that we go and make pancakes for "lunch". not quite lunch but ya.. teabreak. i didnt noe she got so many barang barang. we dont hab an oven so we dont bake but she has everything that you need. From the measuring cups to the rectangular frying pan. u name it. maybe i should ask mommy to buy an oven or all these utensils will be white elephants...
yea i should
-ThE EnD-
haha. Today was fun. I went ice-skatin with dot. She tried to to teach me how to do a spin. haha but i havent master the basic and now i am learning how to spin. funni~ i must have looked very clumsy. heez. We had lunch in Fujiice Palace and we took neoprints!!! YAY!! my favourite! haha.. yup..
haha. Today STINKS! last night, my parents came home and i dont wanna talk to them. man they STINK! cos they ate durian!! goodness. when i was in the MRT train this morning, someone around me ate durian before he/she boarded the train. STINKO! i still cant figure out how i tolerated the smell. aniway, i went to aly's house after skating. her fridge STINKS too!! =S i told her to close the fridge as soon as she opened it, that is how bad the smell was.
after all these, i went home and opened my fridge and nearly fainted.. there's a cup of durian pudding, which grandpa bought, now the whole fridge STINKS!! im not gonna talk to mommy. She just ate the durian pudding! argh! STINKY!!
oh wells, i just hope that she'll not burb in the middle of the night and Stink the whole room. or i'll have to sleep in the hall..
-ThE EnD-
fairytales do not happen in real life. i thought they do...
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It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
'Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
[Chorus #1:]
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me feel
Like I could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song
[Chorus #2:]
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe
That I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
while I was falling
And I didn't mind
Because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
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i guess this is just part of growing up..
-ThE EnD-
Officially :: God's child