Friday, September 29, 2006

i dunnoo.. just feeling sad recently for no apparent reasons.. i may be laughing smiling etc, but just still sad.. something's wrong and i dunno wad it is. Perhaps it's due to exams. Maybe because i keep reminding myself (subconsiously) about small unhappy stuff. i guess i'll need to be more positive..

Recently, God seems so far away. i cant seem to be able to catch what He's trying to say to me thru daily bread. Everything seems bad. He doesnt seem to b working in the youth but i gotta hav faith in His Word that He is faithful and will make all things beautiful in His' time. i wonder where has my yearn to read His Word gone. the kind of feeling i had when i first started hearing, have i become immune or something?? i wanna go back in time, where everyday n i mean everyday, i hear. cos now it seems dat He only speaks occasionally. but i know that He speaks, just that i cant hear. Whats wrong??? im so afraid i'll lose my faith in Him. if i do, i'll be miserable or worse..

i pray that i'll never ever lose my faith and open my heart & ears to Him. Believe that He'll make things beautiful in His' time and He has a purpose in putting me in whatever situation/place and i'll have to trust Him.

i hope that this post will not be a stumbling block to ur walk with God but pray and believe that He'll help me in this situation. i believe that He's preparing me for something better and greater in e future.


Me WhIsPeReD OuT @ 11:29 PM

-ThE EnD-